SOOO life has over all been insane lately. To start this Blog im starting at camp. I went to a Camp in Maine in August this past summer and it was sooo beautiful!! we were right on this GORGEOUS lake called "ECHO LAKE" Being at this camp my eyes were really opened to many things.
1. The first is how truly AWEsome God is. He loves me so dearly and passionately its innnnnnsaaaaine. And i realized the depths of my love for Him! I learned that he's my beestbestbestbestbest friend, he's ALWAYS there for me and is just waiting for me to make time for him. Who in the world does that really? God has this whole big universe to tend to, he has all these other people who he doesn't forget and he still comes and spends a little time with me when i need him/want him. saay WHAAAT?
2. The second thing I was opened to was how much i stink at relying on God and dealing with pain. I saw how much I was hurt and hiding with the Loss of Liam. I saw how much I was ignoring people who had any connection to him. God being one of them. I wasn't praying or reading my bible and then i complained about how much im suffering and needing God. I really made no sense. I came across a scripture at camp in .Ecclesiastes 7:1-4. I'm not going to put it on here but i REALLY encourage you to read it. it moved me to repent and fix my communication with God!
3. Thirdly I really improved in my quiet times. they went from 1% to 60 maybe 80% (im still growing don't judge!) i had soo much time alone to just reflect and pray and have quiet times with God that i mad a goal to continue that through the school year! At firstit was really working but as of late its kind of really faltering. I'll explain in a sec. Any way my LOVE for God and his awesome power just exploded and multiplied in me! even being a baptized deciple I've never been that fired up about Our relationship before! so BONUS!
ALRIGHTY so now don't get me wronngggg, camp wasn't as great as i expected it to be and i was kind of sad about that at first, it was only through meditation and looking into myself after words that I really began to miss and love camp. It's such a protected place from the world- it's unbelievable.<3
So school started and High school will be highschool but it's been good! I had my FIRST encouragement date this year! we now have not one but TWO teen brothers in our church! AAAAHHHH aaamen. EXCITEMENT* so it was a blast and a half and i was suuuper encouraged for the next week of school!
*excitement is an understatement.
And to present i'm sick, possibly with mono. :( I had blood work done yesterday so there aren't any results yet. and i'm not gettng in to all the details at this point but when i as 2 i had ecoli, (google it if you dont know what it is) annd one f my kidneys was totally shut down and the other was in the same direction. I was unconcious for a week or something and my mom Prayed that God wold either take me and stop my pain or heal me immediately. And so obviously i got better right away!! but now my kidneys are fragile and i get sick really easily. so with the mono thing my kidneys and liver are enlarged and thus making my stomach really hurt. so im having a lot of the same tests done as when i had ecoli and we just found out the water we've been drinking is "Not Fit For HUMAN consumption" ................. great right? so im a wee- no im really quite scared about this and I really just need to trust in God. because he IS AN AWESOME GOD so on thaaat note:
HAZZAH!
